I heard the footsteps coming and I knew this would be another long night
And something inside me screamed this time it really isn’t right
The words he was saying were ruthless and cruel
And each time he hit me I sat there and obeyed each and every rule
I sat there blank faced and scared knowing that I couldn’t cry
For I knew what would happen if he saw the tears in my eyes

Each and every swing felt worse and worse
And then all I wanted was to be dead in a hearse
He got real close and whispered “Bitch I wish you weren’t alive”
And all I was thinking was you’re right, I wish I wouldn’t survive
He threw against the wall then proceeded to pin me to the ground
He hit me again, covered my mouth, not letting me make a sound

I started to struggle and tried to release myself of his forceful grip
Then the next thing I heard was a loud, horrifying rip
His hands were cold and I cringed at first touch
I don’t understand how a father could hate his daughter so much
I froze and I couldn’t believe that this was really going on
I just kept looking at the clock wanting him to be gone

I tried so badly not to think of the sharp pain
And this wasn’t part of his usual game
I closed my eyes wishing the time would just pass by
And that next time I opened them I would be up in the sky
He pushed harder and harder and excruciating pain was all I felt
The next thing I heard was the unbuckling of his belt

Something happened inside of me that I can not explain
I got this surge of energy and said “f you and your reign”
Somehow, someway I got out just in time
But what he had already done will never get out of my mind
From then on my life has been forever changed
It was like all I knew had been rearranged
I hate him with everything I have in me and so much more
And one day I want to end this war

Cry Quietly in a Corner

Cry quietly in a corner
Don't make a big scene
Don't let anyone think something's wrong
Remember not to be mean

Cry quietly in a corner
Don't drown anyone in your sorrow
You only have to live through today
You can kill yourself tomorrow

Cry quietly in a corner
Shield yourself from the world
For all they know you just like to cause trouble
Just a bratty little girl

QOTD - Damon Salvatore

“Dear diary, a chipmunk asked me my name today. I told him it was Joe. That lie will haunt me forever." - Damon Salvatore

Slacking....

I've been so lazy lately with blog posts and what not but here I am right now...I've got so many updates but I honestly feel like no one really wants to hear or read about my crappy interests/hobbies so I guess I'm going to keep it to myself for now. I was on Tumblr today and I saw a pretty disturbing GIF of Alcide and Sookie... *barf* I DO NOT WANT THEM TOGETHER!

Ugh... I hate what Alan Ball/HBO has done with Sookie. Can't you guys just let her be with Eric? Come on, seriously? This shit is so annoying. LMAO that GIF totally made me want to stop blogging. I'll post later.

This song will never go away! Even Hello Kitty loves it! xo

My daughter's favorite song!!

So my kiddo really loves Selena Gomez and Justin Bieber but her favorite song right now is Love You Like A Love Song by Selena. My friend Melanie sent me a video the other day of James Franco singing it in a car. I was dying because everyone I know is addicted to that damn catchy song. So as a tribute to Dylan, here is James Franco singing "Love You Like A Love Song." Enjoy!!


James Franco on WhoSay


And now here are two videos of my little Dylan singing and dancing to it as well:

Alexander Skarsgard - Alejandro

On Sunday night I was bored and decided to surf Youtube. What did I find? A lot of fan-made Alexander Skarsgard videos. I love fan videos, sometimes because they just crack me up and other times because they are really well done. I came across this video of Mr. Askars with the song "Alejandro" by Lady GaGa playing in the background. I was really into it and then I started laughing hysterically because I realized that "Alejandro" is Alexander in Spanish.  I guess I find it amusing because on certain occasions I am easily amused.  Anyway, if you know me personally or follow me on Twitter...you know that Askars is my favorite character on "True Blood".  You would also know that I'm obsessed with vampires and the supernatural so...yeah.  I adore Alex Skarsgard and from this moment on I have decided that I will be calling him Alejandro Skarsgard.  Thank you, thank you very much.

Check out the video:

Titanic in SUPER 3D

Hii...

I've decided to start up a new blog but this one will be for my personal use instead of makeup and beauty. I'm really excited about it because I love to write and I feel like I'm embarking on a new journey. Fun times.

My daughter's birthday is in 2 weeks. She will be 4 years old and I can't believe how fast time has flown by. Shit is crazy. Wow. Anyway, we're having her birthday party this Saturday, April 14th. We decided to have it a week before because she's off from ballet/tap class that day. The following week, April 21st (her actual birthday) her dance class resumes from Spring break. We've pretty much done everything there is to do. We ordered the cake, bought her some gifts, got the decorations/supplies and now we're just patiently waiting for the day to arrive. I'm so excited! It's bittersweet really. My baby is growing up so quickly and I can't rewind or go back in time. I love to hear her say, "I love you momma." When she was little she wasn't able to say those words to me. I think I would miss that if we were able to go back in time. I love my little munchkin. She's everything to me. She's the air I breathe. I can't wait until her party. She's going to be so happy.

Her daddy and I had to take her to the emergency room on Easter Sunday (yesterday) because she was burning up with fever. She caught a bad cold from her auntie and she's been on and off with fever, vomiting and coughing. I sure do hope that she's better by Saturday.

I recently began scrapbooking again. I used to do it frequently years ago and then I just stopped one day. I had been wanting to do it for a while and I just decided to. I'll take some pictures and post them up one of these days. I love to make scrapbooks and take pictures. Photography is one of my hobbies, besides blogging about beauty, collecting cute things and writing. I can't wait to show you what I've done with some of my pictures and ticket stubs. Yay! Can't wait.

Anyway, I'm going to end this random ramble here because I have to start dinner. Thanks for reading my first post!! Until the next! Lots of love.

"Pain is a wrong perspective.  When it is experienced in any form, it is proof of self-deception.  It is not a fact at all.  There is no form it takes that will not disappear if seen aright."